Clinical Depression

I just found out that I have clinical depression. I don't always feel depressed so I don't understand how it came to be. The doctor seems to think that it is the sum of all my troubles that wasn't resolved. I thought that I have resolved them by coming to term with it. Unfortunately, that is not the case.

The thing that bug me is that a friend who I talk to about 2-3 times a year noticed that difference in me and know that I'm in deep emotional trouble yet my family and relatives didn't. It's amazing to learn so much about myself and what I put up with. James said that I am strong that I just have a nervous breakdown after a year. I thought about what he said that I agreed with him. If I wasn't strong enough, I would have had a nervous breakdown years ago and not do Nu Skin business at all.

The worst part of knowing that I got clinical depression is the drug. I have changed it once just after taking it 2 days. I think that I need to change it again. It makes me sleepy and lazy. The first one even give me a pounding headache that last for 2 days. The latest one give me a hang over for the whole day.

I got to fight this. I got to be able to work and make money to support myself and my 2 children. I cannot rely on anyone else to do it for me anymore. I simply have to dig myself out of my hole and rise above all the mud of challenges that drowning me. Need to stay focus, determined and positive no matter what others say about me.